Writing to Write

In the past couple of days, a lot has transpired. Many words said, some out of anger some out of hurt, but nonetheless they were said. I once heard somewhere that hurt people, hurt people (think about it). As much as it sucks, it's true. If all you know is hurt, then that is all you can give out, but what really sucks, is that, that will be all you receive as well. I come from a place of love and that's all I want to ever give out.

My mind has been a whirl wind of my health, about love, about God (I know you hear me Lord :-/), health, my future, goals, dreams, and everything in between. I want to do so much, yet something is holding me back. Not sure what it is, haven't pin pointed it out as of yet. Then I find myself at in a familiar place of waiting. Waiting on what you ask? Love, God, a dream, an opportunity, something. Then that same nagging question of "what do I do while I wait" comes back and haunt me every time.

Replaying the past couple of weeks in my head, I've learned that I can be a firecracker and like thing in the moment I think of them. I am sure I am not the only out there like that, but sometime I forget that and need a constant reminder. I know I can be a nuance to some people, but I use the excuse of because I love them. Love, oh love that awesome feeling you get in that doesn't always make you smile, but should because you are over thinking, over analyzing, over creating situations in your head when all you need to do is CHILL love. Yea, that love.

So, my hope from this day forward is to just chill, relax, and ENJOY life! Like seriously! Lol

Ooohh and stay tuned for some new things coming to the site! I need to start building this enterprise, in Jesus name!

xoxo
Divine

Open Doors {Relationships}

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With the New Year at our beck and call, well actually alive and pushing I'm having a blast so far. 2013 was received at my home church with my mom and that oh so awesome Soup Jou mou (Ask about it!) which I still don't know how to make....yet! Any who after church I spent some time with the uhm...uh..boo. We're still in the talking phase with an exclusive understanding. We know we want to go further and that this is long term situation.

 I called this post Open Doors because in relationships not only do I believe that men should be gentlemen and open doors, but that there should be open doors so that there is an acceptance of new ideas, truths, and everything else that comes with love. Now that there is a mister in the picture (aww that almost ryhmed...hehehe) and we've both expressed our love for each other, I am really praying for Open Doors, spiritually,  mentally, emotionally and all the other -ally's.I am praying that we are able to seek God's guidance  in each step we take with each other, that God will be the strength that holds us together. Even when we fall, because we will fall, that we are able to get up and walk over and through what it is that tries to block us.

I really want this brewing love between us to not only work, but to prosper, to be be an example to others. I pray, LORD I pray that the things that trouble and bother him be given to you, so that he can find rest and a peace in his spirit. Those things that are not of you and that are blocking you from entering in, may he conscientiously give them up. May your strength overcome our weakness.

[I had an entirely different thought for this post, however sometimes you can't stop the fingers from what the mind is telling it to write]

To my young Queens and Princesses pray for your Love. Ask for an understanding so that confusion nor fear enter into your relationship. Lift him up before the Father and see your words manifest before your eyes.

Love,
Divine

Ode to 2013

This is for you 2013

While 2012 was quite an adventure

I look forward to the days of 2013

to the nights filled with Worship, sweet words, and love abundantly

to 2013 where the possibilities are endless

and the opportunities never cease to exist

To challenges, to truth, to overcoming

of my down falls

to showing him Christ with love

gentleness, and a sound mind

to expressing deeply how I love him

thru action, and execution

To opening my heart, my mind, my soul

to what God has intended for me

everyday of 2013

Though I am no where near perfect

I aim to get closer to God

striving to walk side by side

in each area of my life

with Him leading the way

and me in the background following dutifully

Trusting with ALL my heart, mind, and soul 

that everything that God has for me will indeed come to fruition

In the past year I prayed for companionship, a friend, a one

one whom God had set aside for me

2013 I pray that my one will open his heart and receive

what it is God has for him, that our relationship

gets deeper and that we can stand firm

on the Rock which is Christ.

to 2013

I will laugh more

maintain stability, become financially free

live each day as if it was my last

however faithfully knowing that my tomorrow

is in the hand of the creator

2013, I pray for an understanding

of my purpose and a strong courage to follow

in HIS Perfect WILL

I pray for an explosion of creativity

and the execution, action, and foot forward

of every idea in my mind

to success in work, life and love

and to the death of over-thinking-analyzing-and creating stories

in my female mind

2013, this is to you

Positive thinking, healthy eating, love & liberation.

May everyday be a resolution to live, love and laugh. May truth flow from us freely and love overwhelm our spirits. I thank God for another day, another year, another moment to do things differently, love freely, and not over think life. He is my creator and knew me before I knew myself. 

Happy New Year fam.

Hard Love {Relationships}

Love should never be hard to do. Hard to have, be, nor hard to express. Yet, here I am in a "Hard Love" situation. We have misconstrued what love is by trying to live through the fantasies of books, TV shows and movies. And then disappointment happens, when our love doesn't end up like Disney Princess stories. The world have lied to us many times about love and how it should be, or at least what they think it should be. Clearly stated in the Greatest book known to us, is that God is Love. HE Love us so much that He gave His only SON, to die for us. Who would honestly allow man to slay their only child? What a God we serve. God's love for us is unconditional. Without conditions. Without preconceived notions. Without bias. Without limit. Without the fear of the unknown.

When I uttered the words 'I Love You' doors opened up to a world I tried to keep away from. With each word that pressed thru my lips, my heart broke off a chip that held on from fear and hurt. When I exhaled my sentiments into your ears, I thought I would have opened doors of bliss and comfort truth, but instead I opened doors of criticism and blame, hurt from your past, that is not mind to carry, but here I am trying to love you with all your faults. I am just human, the child of God, unable to carry such weight. It is not mine to have, please spare me anymore hurt, anymore blame, anymore fear of what I do not know. Christ died, so that your insecurities can be taken away. He died, so that you can be free from your past, and all of your evil ways. Don't get stuck in between what use to be and what is. Call it out and claim freedom. When I stepped into the words 'I Love You' I grabbed a hold of you, hoping that you will see the Love that only Christ can be.

Sometimes we are captured by this misconception of what Love is. Love is free from revenge. Love is your voice I hear on the other end of the line, feeling as if you are next to me even though I know you are truly thousand miles away. Love is forgiving you for hurting me immaturely. I am a vessel filled with this Love, but my love can't go through bricks of pride and ego, it can't go through cement blocks of hurt and fear, it will not go through shattered glass of your past. As much as I want to love you, hard love I cannot do. I was once emotionless to you, but from the second 'I Love You' left my lips, emotion-filled is what I became for you.

I look at the moments and think, this can't be it. Distance will never be a reason why I can't love you the way I should love you nor me.

This is for you Love. Clear to everyone, clear as day. See it how you will, but I wasn't born to be Hard Loved. I don't know why you love me, but I do know that I can't sit around waiting for you to find out. I'm all the way in, that is........until you shut me out. And right now, I'm feeling pushed out. So, baby clear as day are these words from me to you. Take them as you will. I refuse to be Hard Loved. Love should never be hard.




****Walking away is never easy when your heart is open and free, but walking away is needed when you heart is too open and needs to be free****

From: Me
To: Him

Quote Me Tuesday

"When you love someone, the best thing you can offer is your presence. How can you love if you are not there?"- Thich Nhat Hanh 

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Pausing Time

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Based on the title of this post, can we really pause time? Of course the answer is no. No matter what we may think or try to do, time will continue to run out, pass us by, and simply tick and tock. Seconds creating minutes, into hours, into days, weeks, months, and years. At a point in our life we will look back and let's hope that what we see is our goals being completed vs the same problem we've had years ago still in the forefront.

Sometimes I like to press pause. Not so much on time, but on my life. Pausing, yielding because sometimes we can be living too fast for our own good.

Imagine if there weren't any stop signs, or traffic lights to tell us when to go, slow down and stop? What if there weren't any speed bumps, or even pot holes in the road. I sometimes see these things as good pauses in life. Does anyone ever realize how fast they are going until they crash? I rather heed the signs to slow down and take a moment and reevaluate what's going on around me, in me, in front of me. There is nothing wrong with stepping away for a while, to fine tune the craft and gift that God has given us. Just like a car needs to be refueled with gas, or its oil change, and what about the tires? They get burnt out too.

So here I am, taking a pause. Considering that this is the first day of the last month of 2012; which 2012 has been a BLESSED year indeed for me, I do not want 2013 to be the same. I've learned a lot about myself and the friendships, family-ships, relationships that I am in. So, I'm pausing. Pausing from the planning, pausing from the over-thinking, pausing and simply loving. Loving God, Loving myself, Loving those around me, embracing them and being in them.

Step back and pause for a moment. Refresh yourself, so that you can only be the best you. However long you choose to pause for, just don't forget to press play.

-Daphne

Hello December

So November is gone and December is here, which also indicates the end of a year and the beginning of a New Year (God willing). Of course around this time, many of us are reevaluating our past year and seeing how it wil be different in the year to come. I can definitely say that 2011 has been my year, and you know what?! 2012 will be too! I have so many things I want to accomplish that I'm hoping to begin now. So much has happened, that i have no regret whatsoever. Turning 25, graduating with my MBA (thanks Mom), and moving to New York was just the icing on the cake for this year. In the short span of the last couple of months, I got clarity on a friendship that at one point I would have hoped to be more, but accepted that it will not....I just might do a post about it. And on another note, I got back in contact with a long lost friend...only God knows where that will go. So December...how shall we spend our time together?

On another note, I've been thinking about the content on my blog and how I somewhat censor some things out because I'm afraid of what others would think about me. But if I continue with that mind set how far will I get in life? So for 2012 one of my goals is to be like a child and stay true to myself and to others and always remain honest and real. Plus folks can't judge me, without first casting judgement on themselves. With lots of love and juice.....

-Divine Beauty

Trails of dust.....

At the end of the day.....I'm still not yours.....