and Then....it was OVER

The title really has nothing to do with the post, but more with how I have been feeling lately. But nonetheless, with the New Year less than 60 days away I have begun to purge a few things. Starting with pictures. Above are my pictures categorized in a series of events throughout my life. And Below is the shoe box that I stored them in. I threw out a lot of pictures from middle school, high school, some college and anything in between. Nowadays we all have digital camera's so it's either instant delete or upload to facebook. 

This is just the beginning of a long purge where some hard decisions will have to be taken, things given up, relationships shadowed and life seen as a new palate. One thing for sure is that it will not be easy to give up the things that were so dear to heart. But sometimes in life, the things that are so dear are those same things that are either not good for you or those things that just plainly hurt. And no one in life wants to continue to live hurt.....soooo  yea.

Love and Kisses,

Divine BEaUty

Trails of dust.....

At the end of the day.....I'm still not yours.....

Long, Short, Curly, Straight.....Hair and I

Photoshoot Before Leaving TX

Phone pic, prolly going to church

Fresh Perm and Color

@ Central park

@ Lunch 

@ Movie Theater

On my way to Church

Just for Fun

Forever and a Day, a Week, & a Month.....

Yea, Yea, Yea ....I know it's been a loooooooooooonnngg time, but for good reason. I guess. Any who, so much has happened in the past couple of days, weeks, and months. I wish my thoughts were more cohesive and ordered, but in truth they are not. SO...since this IS MY blog, I'll just write. Maybe one day, I'll have some sort of structure.

**Updates**
- So I am no longer considering Law School, at least not for Fall 2012.
- I'm still with the Temp agency, which is fine, cause they find me assignments all the time.
- I still live in NY! #Survivor
- My brother is getting MARRIED (Another post entirely)
- I'm still single and Satisfied
- I've gotten clarity on a relationship

I'm sure there's more updates, of course because I am still breathing. But, somethings I would like to change is the consistency of posting blogs. It's like my mind is this BIG idea room and I'm trying to push them out so that they can become actions....still working on that of course. From now on, I hope to be able to post frequently, especially about things that are going on with me in every aspect of my life. I will not post every single detail, because I believe a person should still have a sense of secrecy that makes people want to discover more. I will however keep you updated on such things like the food I cook, my poetry, my crafts, and anything else I deem ME.

Until next time (hopefully sooner than later)

Kisses...Divine Beauty

myBrooklyn

Yesterday was such a beautiful day in BK and I just could not stay inside, so I walked and walked and walked and took some pics. Seen some things that made me laugh, go aww, and some that left a question mark on my face. Anywho......why waste the day sulking in the house when you can go out and stay in awe of God's goodness surrounded by His creations. Here are some pics below.

Reflections

"Open up before God, keep nothing back; he'll do whatever needs to be done: He'll validate your life in the clear light of day and stamp you with approval at high noon." Psalm 37 (MSG)

The month of September has been about cleaning, purging and everything consisting of getting my life in a sense of order. Even now at the end of the month, I still have some purging to do. Letting go of some friends, contacts, and ugly habits. Nonetheless, one foot in fron of the other I will prevail. Looking back at September there are things that I would change, but there is no point in dwelling in whats already happened. So what I will do is look ahead and try harder. It's one thing to say you are going to do something and another to actually go thru with it. With that said I think the month of Octorber is going to based on action and less on words. Implementing the things that I say that I will do. A yes is a yes is a yes (period). In a latter post I will list the things that I would like to do in the month of October, some will be continual as October being a beginning month for them.

When one looks in the mirror you can choose to see what is there. It is up to you to decided if you like it or not and make a decision on what to do next about what is there. Take truth for what you see and honor that truth with change if it is in fact hurting you or those who love you. Often times what we see in the mirror are figments of our imagination and we need true friends to tell us we are looking into a fairy tale's mirror.

May what is in your heart be pure and true, so that the thoughts in your mind become the words you speak, leading to the actions you do (simple, yet daring). -Me

The More iSeek You

Source

After scrolling through my phone's music playlist, I fell upon this song, I'm sure not by happenstance. Anywho, I've been meditating on this song and it has really spoken to me. I've gone beyond just listening to the lyrics to praying the lyrics and imagining the lyrics. So I'll delve into it with you as I dissect this song and what I see when I hear/sing/pray it.

The more i seek you  [The more I worship, read your word, seek you face, become intimate]

the more i find you.  [through the small joys of being healthy, happy, fulfilled.]

 

drink from the cup in your hand [health, prosperity, long life...the clear seeping liquid that only carries everlasting life, love, hope, and truth]

hear your heart beat [the serene thump, rhythm, rhyme of the light that guides each step of my life, predestined for me]   
This love is so deep [deeper than the level of the Earth's core, so deep I lose my breath and float in your presence]


I melt in your peace, it's overwhelming [You handle all my battles small, big and extra large...I remain in awe of you as you continously overcome battles with you love...I'm not worthy Lord, but you come through all the time, how can I not lift my hand up in Praise, and bow down in worship?]
Lyrics

 

it's more than I can stand [so deep i give up, I give in, I give out everything that is possible me]

Lay back against you and breath [as I exhale my troubles, I inhale His depth, His love, His peace]
I wanna sit at your feet [lay down all my problems, issues, secrets, to dwell in you presence]The more i find you,  [through your daily blessings of open doors, and endless love]the more I love you  [with my servitude, my praise, spending time with you]